Gemini Love Profile

Positive Traits: Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go. <- ehem! ehem! i know! You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire. <- and i always abuse this talent! You are adaptable enough to flirt with anyone <- most occassions and people tend to fight over you. <- still getting used to it.

Negative Traits: You get easily bored in relationships and tend to jump from person to person. <- bull's eye! You tend to be a bit of a player <- a bit?! and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships. <- beg to differ. Not the most empathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems. <- yep! yep!

Ideal Partner: Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested. Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave. An open minded person, who is willing to have a non-traditional relationship.

Dating Style: Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you are very happy. <- that is so true. i enjoy exotic food and scuba diving.

Seduction Style: Experimental. It is rare that you try the same thing twice. <- indeed! Ultra kinky - you do stuff that is not even in books yet. <- hah! my close buds would cheers to that! Hot and cold... Sometimes you are just not into the whole sex thing. <- depends on mood.

Future Tips: Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so do not let people go so fast. Acknowledge that you are a player and flirt. <- with pleasure! If your mate cannot live with this, find someone who can. <- good advice! Give your partner a little more attention. You do not have to be a social butterfly all the time.

Killer Opponent

There is a cooler dude in school. His name is Danial. Looking forward to getting acquainted.

Stupid Question

Of course i and Yana do stuffs. Duh. We are an item. She could be decent. But i know i am not.

What Goes Around Comes Around

Danial going Bali and Zai going Phuket. Others are travelling too but what am i to do. I need my little escape this coming holiday. Nevermind. I will think of something. My birthday is coming and preparations are underway. Sigh. I want to commemorate it differently. Then i miss my brother. He is in Pahang. I am also missing someone too. Sigh. But nevermind. Great Singapore Sale is here again. Yahoo! Time to splurge. Pirates Of The Caribbean: At World's End was not as intriguing as the world had anticipated but it was good stuff. 170 minutes! Captain Jack Sparrow cracked me up in chuckles. Do not forget to sit through the credits for that little oomph. I booked the tickets online one week in advance. Singapore's biggest screen with comfortable leg room and lush seatings got me in the mood. Before this movie i was not relishing much of Spider-man 3 either. It was not supposed to be a tear-jerker. People left right centre sobbing and sniffing when Peter Parker's bestfriend died. Friends do not backed out on one another. Bah. I sat through the three hours biting my nails for it to end early. So many villains but plain and predictable plots in additions to very few action-oriented-anti-climatic scenes. Bah. But i am buying my tickets early for World Wrestling Entertainment in July. Before i end this entry i would like to say that my sudden behaviour and abrupt attitude metamorphosis in campus does not equate to my understanding of hating anyone in it. I may keep conversations to a minimal among my classmates and schoolmates but that does not mean you are my enemy. However the enemy of my enemy is my friend. I miss my youth in primary and secondary school. Having performed or getting involved in almost all school concerts and functions. Great friends in time of bliss and innocence. Those were the days but long carried away. There is a lot i can contribute but i rather choose to lay low in the hay. It is not worth the effort and enthusiasm. I just cannot wait to graduate.

It is in the character of very few men to honour without envy a friend who had prospered!

PS: I miss the titans. I am meeting them soon.

S To The T To The R To The E Double S

Alah this entrepeneurship thing is giving me a headache lah! Arguing with that lecturer for half an hour was worth the mess. He so deserved a nice verbal but intellectual lashing. Them teachers can get wrong too.

The Bull Charges On

I am growing stronger. Physically, mentally and most importantly emotionally.

So Far So Good

My weekend was a blast. I started out on Friday straight after school to catch a movie about this dude who could forsee the future. Cool stuff. Hung around and ate grass till almost midnight. Did silly things and snapped funny pictures. My last shower was at eight in the morning. I was up in the north and i was smelly and feeling lazy. To some this odour is manly and sexy while to others it is fishy. I call it pheromones. It is to attract the opposite gender. So anyway i hailed a cab all the way back to the west. Got up pretty late on Saturday and rushed to the beach at Sentosa. Somewhere near seven the island got gloomy and creepy and the sky started to pour. It was fun. I was the first to fool around in the rain and the big men soon follow suit. Hey come on let your inner child run free. Being an adult or teenager is no big deal. Learn to loosen up and have fun.

I checked the time. Oh shit! I made my way to bestfriend's house. I decided to spend the night there so i hit the showers with him before watching Chelsea thrashed Manchester United. I am disappointed. Sigh. Bestfriend was up early on Sunday. I got up a few times but simply slept on ignoring his unkindly presence. He was a little furious and agitated. He had plans so i had to leave for home in the afternoon. Perhaps next time we can chill longer. I did my laundry and washed my cat's cage. I gave the cat a nice hot bath after clipping his claws. It is for my own safety and the people in this neighbourhood. Din is ferocious. He is a fighter. Beware. You have been warned. I also cleaned his ears and blow-dried him with the hair-dryer. Then i transferred three hundred songs to my mobile phone and uploaded lots of pictures. My Ipod Nano has nine hundred songs.

PS: Exactly one more month to my birthday. I want to spend the day differently. I want to be with you and only you.

Fortune Favours The Bold

Go watch it in June alright!

It Is In The Stars

This is what my horoscope says for today. It is so true:

After months of putting it off, you finally get down to discussing your relationship and its future - but the outcome is not as clear as you had hoped. You feel you have moved forward, but you are still not where you wanted to be. It is tempting to go for a compromise, just to say you have got some sort of a firm result, but it is not a good idea, you could easily lose what you have gained. Let things settle, and try again later.

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait

Here i am at home blogging. It is so hot out there. But better then being in here. There is no way i am staying indoors anyway. I will be going out later but soon. I missed school today and had been skipping lessons since Monday. I hope the institution will expel me. I cannot stand the stinky community much longer. It is not a place for me. This will be my final year as a student that i am sure. I wasted precious times at home or out and about with people and friends doing really silly things. Going places and retreating to base late achieving nothing much of value. I just cannot stay confined or i will land myself in a sorry state easily again. It is dangerous and life threatening. I just need to go out and mingle. But i am recovering. Doing better then i had hoped for. I am moving on because that is what i have to do. Not something i want to do though. At times i wonder if what i am doing is the ultimate right thing. Time will tell me and so be it. This feeling is still strong. It is more than just sad and unfortunate that our journey ends early. Enough said.

When This Happens I Will Be Here For You

Even Spider-man has a sadistic side. No one is perfect. But using this as an excuse to appear lesser of a human is the greatest crime for us to get away from responsibility and deny ownership for all our actions. Through imperfection can we strive to find the better human capable of doing the right thing. No matter how hard you try to suppress your inner demons the fact remains that it exists in all of us. Release this beast from it's cage once in awhile but hold tight to the reigns and chains. Tame it. No matter how wild and fierce it is still ours to nurture for. Be brave and strong. Prevent this creature from succumbing and devouring us. You thought you could control and command this great force of evil by refusing to acknowledge its presence and neglect its existence. But the harder and longer you bind this burning inferno once this monster rear it's ugly head and gets out of hand all hell breaks loose and havoc will be wrecked. Do not wait till you cannot hold on no more because when that happens it will be way too late. You snap and you will regret the mean and sometimes irreversible actions you do to yourself and others.

From Sharill

If expressing my heart be considered emo by the words of men - beings who are created by God to BE emotional, THEN SO BE IT!

You Are The One

On this special night silent and surreal i pour this honest feelings straight from the heart as a remembrance and future reference. I shall be humble and give credits when due. Listen as i utter these words for this do not happen often. God bear witness that i am missing her deep inside. This solid heart of a man denied of much feelings begs to be touched again. So soft and demure those hands. Caring for me and pulling me up when i stumble along the road of uncertainties among difficulties. She put me to rest and at ease oh those words so comforting whispering in the wind. Sincere and genuine i can tell. I am no fool darling. You meant it those tears shed for me seals this trust i have no qualm surrendering to. The stars are on our side girl. She who stood for me when the world cast its horrid shadows shall be remembered, recognised and appreciated. Forget her i can never do till this last breath i will fight on strong. There will be no separation till death do us part to meet again in the heavens. Her patience and her understanding touches me and impresses me much. I am flattered at her faith and courage that attitude i respect. Petite in size but greatness i never experienced. God bless her soul and life here for being the purest most gracious person this world so breeds little of. She was there for me never floundering ever prevailing. Standing beside me supporting me all the time. I am grateful and honoured. I was at most vulnerable and she gave me hope. The hope to face the challenges of tomorrow bright and cheerful with vital strength and pride to hold this head up high again. She would never give up on me encouraging me and motivating me. Cheering me on in her own unique manner. She who feels for me that much will be the one to sit beside me and sleep with me on our wedding night. She will be the one. The one bride who deserves this life this future so fate demands. This hand hold it tight for i promise to be the ship that carries all burdens and steer to the right destination till our great grandchildren. Please do not leave me again. I need this.

Match Made In Heaven

There is someone for everyone in this universe. I found mine. Have you?

Shahren Misses The Sea

Said i would go to school today and do a test. But that apparently did not happen. I just got home not from campus but from the overrated island of Sentosa not long ago. Got up this morning at nine and just gave up the thought of attending lectures. Been contemplating since yesterday actually but only decided this morning. I had a rough night startling up at odd hours. That is rather peculiar. So i rang up and rounded up a few people this afternoon and off to the beach bumming with the usual gang. I am golden tan in accordance to the weather which was battering hot. The heat was unbearable. The sun scorching burning high up in the clear blue stratosphere. Just the manner i would order if i could. The wave was perfect too. There were very few people littering the sandy pearly beach. Feeling adventurous i stripped down that boardshorts and swam in the sea wearing nothing. Something i felt comfortable doing only in the company of my boys since there were no girls this round. The sun set and i crashed at bestfriend's crib to watch Michael Scofield and his mates planning their great escape from prison. Shahren had fun today leaving the harsh reality of life stealing a little runaway solace from a nearby fantasy. The sea is where i want to be. Young and free. May peace and tranquility be with me. The gloomy and stormy clouds will come to pass and path a way bright and hopeful to lead the lost. The tides that ebbs and flows.

Size Does Matters

I am feeling light-headed today. The world i view from where i stand is topsy-turvy. I was not in school on Tuesday nor was i yesterday. I have to attend class later because there is a test. I will consider coming on Friday since i have to bring Din the cat to the vet for his booster vaccination. Thus far i had two meals. I have at least one more to go. This body needs to be nourished at least thrice a day. I will be jubilated if i can go for a fourth. Need to pack some serious mass considering the rate of my weight deteriorating far beats the trickle of the droplets leaking from the sink. Something like that. I am just trying to emphasise the fact that i am losing weight rapidly. I am having trouble fitting into my denims. No belts could do the trick for i am starting to look like a clown named Doink-The-Smarty-Pants. I met a friend at Marina Square not too long ago and she was alarmed. She thought i did drugs. Errr nevermind. Then there was another girl i dated a long time ago. She too said i looked small. And she added that the goatee must go. Yeah it is gone. So much for trying to put on an impression that i am legal enough to buy cigarettes. It is not working. Got my hair fixed too last Friday so now i am looking squeaky clean. No more haggard. I am resting at home when usually i should be outdoors. The weather has been freaky. Everyday after school i will rush home to get changed and go out again. I am seldom indoors. Out there is where i will feel relieved and calm. Miles from depression and loneliness.

There Is No Down But Up When Rock Bottom

School commenced almost a month and attendance is appalling. Missing on the first and present for about less then three on that straight five before starting all over the next five with less than acceptable attitude. I was around about four times in a combined ten. Even if this face is seen around campus i will be late and never punctual. People calling up and creating noise referring me to subject head. The standard procedure nothing i am unfamiliar. Started to demonstrate positive change in the third but still needed major adjustments. Out of this nominal presence around the institution it was unfortunate i got caught puffing in the premises. I lighted that cigarette the following afternoon. Sue me assholes. I fear not. Reprimanded on multiple occasions spotting improper attire. Never to see me in shoes but sandals and the top is so not school uniform. The hair too. Long and highlighted. Throw me out of that damn school man. Go ahead and do it. Do me a favour. I cannot quit on own accord because brother will not allow me to.

It is so hard to get the ass in that sordid institution. I was having fun and i had great times before school started. Gaining weight and clubbing all the time. I did drugs because i was too stressed up and i can go puffing a box a night. That is where all the cash goes to. I can hold the pouring alcohols and beers but i must bear in mind that i have medical conditions. School started and i began to lose weight again. Proteins and weight gainers do me no good. Though this stomach screams food in school the appetite just disappears seeing certain faces again. I hold no conversations much in class and minds this business. Scribbling notes and paid little attention to the lecturers. I planned to do good and graduate. Sure. I am not in school again blogging on and i have plans tonight so no school later. But i am not all that bad. Did long reports and started on projects the night i was informed. Notes galore even throughout lunch. No kidding i am hardworking. I did bad and i hate to be a failure. I am the best at what i do.