Get Me Out Of This Shit Hole

Today is the second day of the second term and i am already feeling the heat. School reopens and i feel like trash. Timetable stinks and the people sucks. I cannot emphasise more. I am in trouble with less then mediocre attendance. In other words it is pathetic far across recognition. I can be up to five hours late and punch in after lunch. Already my sleeping pattern is on the brink of disintegration. Tong is in and back in business after a brief hiatus from campus at some industrial attachments or so i heard. But it made not much difference seeing i am hardcore delinquent. He and i had a heart to heart chat this afternoon. He used to cover for me but perhaps he realised that the effort and compassion he bestowed was futile and hung out unappreciated. That was what i analysed just now. Undeniably i am stubborn as hell and it is pointless to try and save my ass. I am beyond help or so they say.

Anyway my life seems to be on the right path heading towards a blissful sanctuary when only recently this presence of a jinx tarnishes my safety haven leaving me feeling my peaceful sanctity at threat. But i am strong and armed with ammunitions this time. I am optimistic and i hope i can pull through school in one piece. No more suicidal thoughts. Pure insanity my integrity gone jittery. It is hard to maintain conversations to a bare minimal and human contact to plain professionalism with this devil in disguise. Suddenly my life became challenging and full of flavour. Visions in a faded blur and focusings needed recalibaration. During the holidays i was in almost perfect conditions enjoying myself from dusk till dawn but now that school kicks in i am detesting it. Period. Hate it. Reports piling up and anticipated projects in the spotlight. Not forgetting the tests and examinations. Eight more months to graduation. God speed.