Just Rambling Because I Cannot Sleep

Three in the morning and i am still unable to sleep. Tossing and turning do me no good. I just tapped my brother to stop his snoring. He sleeps soundly beside me. I am at Queenstown now. Hardly i return to Jurong these days. I am using laptop number two to type this entry. My attendance in school falls nothing short of appalling and so be it. I got caught smoking again. It sucks to pay fines over and over again. I am already short of cash. I never learn my lesson. I detest school and it is getting more apparent. I cannot pay attention anymore. I have a limited attention span and i get bored easily. Less than four more months to go and i am so done. I am already counting down to the holiday this December. Christmas is here again and as usual i am hosting the annual party at my place. The open house for Hari Raya went well but i am catering for this upcoming party so get your presents ready. But before that - time to hit Zoukout this eighth of December at Siloso Beach. Come join me and my friends if you are interested.

I went swimming with Shahfuddin yesterday evening. It was not like he had not seen that thing before and it was not even our first time swimming together. Hell we even showered together and watered the plants or shared the same urinal before. But yesterday i felt different. I had to take a dump so he had to shower alone. I cannot even have a peaceful moment doing business without him disturbing me. He was so annoying. Finally i was done and it was my turn to wash up. He was already done and almost fully-clothed. He stood and sat there watching me shower for quite awhile. I felt uncomfortable. Suddenly appearing and walking around the toilet in the buff felt awkward. I even had to cover the door a little and told him to look away but i still noticed him peeking. I began to wonder and my thoughts went array. But that cannot be. He has a girlfriend whom he loves too much and he did well on our little escapade that night with Intan. Perhaps i am just well-endowed down there. No wonder others were looking too.