The Missing Pages

The school had risen well and will fall in due time. Similar to all things both organic and non-living. The same rules apply to you and i and this blog too. Most matter of considerable mass are superficial and non-sustainable. Even the strongest bonds and relationships among people and friends crumble in shambles. There is great sense in all these cosmic mumbo-jumbo. If people and concrete buildings deteriorates and decomposes i say it is only logical that the actions of such mere mortals and their creations are doomed and ill-fated. That includes relationships. Good things must come to an end. Nice song by Nelly Furtado. I came to terms that people come and go in our lives. I cannot control much of the future and i cannot alter the past. But i made the best and gave my best. I really did. There are things i regret and the hurt lingers. Haunting and forever daunting. There are achievements i am proud of and other endeavours less fulfilling that i am ashamed of. Even current situations are unpredictable but the times i had with my friends were pretty much well-spent and invested in the best ways possible in my own manner and pattern misconstrued by many. I will nonetheless cherish and treasure the times and lessons learnt.

The school will be brought down to rubbles and grazed to the ground in approximately two years along with all the memories. There will be nothing left but dust and dirt and grime and sludge. In place of once an institude full of life will stand a morbid foundation of a happy community for many gone but not forgotten. The stone pillars and solid columns will come crashing down and so will this blog. The termination of this blog will not coincide with the death of the school but rather sooner than planned. I guess it is time. This blog holds more sad entries full of pain and shame in accordance to the more gleeful ones and my existence in the short-lived school is finally coming to an end. I have been waiting for this day but truthfully i am a little emotional. There are problems unsolved and personal projects unaccomplished. I did not manage to be the best. I have two months left and i hope it is not too late for certain amendments. I do not want to leave feeling dejected and unsatisfied in order to start afresh for 2008. 2007 was harsh. I need to settle the issues that had been bugging me before i can move ahead. I am still striving to correct the errors made. Just give me the chance. I must close the chapters in peace. Not leave them hanging.